There’s no way to begin this goodbye. It’s hard to start, and it’ll be hard to end. To start this post is to say goodbye forever, and it’s hard to let go of one of my soul pets for the last time.

I got home and went to Patrick to cuddle with him, and he was limp. Unmoving even as I picked him up, and just as still as I held him in my arms and sat in the sun with him for the last time. My sweet boy was gone before I even got the chance to tell him goodbye.

Patrick was a friend. He was the first pet I got purely for me, and he came to me angry at the world. He bit me, and he hissed at me, but eventually, given a little bit of love, we became what I’d like to say is friends.

He was one of the best things to happen to me in such a difficult time of my life, and he gave me joy that even Koda at the time couldn’t give, and I couldn’t find anywhere else. He was such a good boy even though he was so mad before his life with me, and I hope that I gave him a bit of needed love these past 3 1/2 years before he passed on.

Patrick, your chapters in my life may be few and over, but they will forever be some of my favorite parts of my book, and I can’t help but mark the page and keep re-reading it hoping for a different ending. I’m so sorry, buddy. I love you so much, and I’m sorry I wasn’t there when your chapter came to a close. It’s going to be hard to turn that page tomorrow, but just know I’ll love you until the end of my book. I will never stop loving you, and I promise that I will never forget you.

I love you my sweet Pat. I hope your last sunset was a great one. I’m so lucky to have ever got the chance to have you as my friend.